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• Mya has spring break next week- totally caught me off guard for it to be in March! A whole 9 days of no alarm clocks, no morning rush, or volunteering at the school throughout the week. So very needed around here. (I love that she gets a full 5 school days off here- kids are gypped in Utah!)
• I'm pretty sure me and Linc (and a few others from his office) are doing the Tough Mudder again in October. The course will be at the same place, but with a few different obstacles thrown in there. Can't wait to complete it with Linc!
• Time seems to be flying here. We have been here for 8 months. EIGHT! I am so used to winter dragging on and on that this week I did a double take that it was already March. We are outside every day, I mowed my lawn today in shorts and a tank. I am grateful to not be feeling trapped by the weather.
• I've recently been diagnosed with PMDD. I have felt the symptoms since May of last year with more severity each month. At the end of January, after feeling so completely not like me and borderline suicidal, I figured out that the symptoms were very isolated and would disappear (overnight) at the start of my period. A quick google search for "menstruation related depression" and I sat there and read link after link that described exactly what I went through every month. I made an appt with my doctor and we have a game plan for treating it. I have such mixed feeling about it all, but I am grateful to be treating it if nothing else. Going on untreated felt grim.
• I think this little ode to knitting necklace is so cute. I can't decide how practical it would be for me- those pins do stick out a little. I love it though. I love knitting. Far more than I ever imagined I would.
• Speaking of knitting...here is an "action" shot of sewing our tree cozy on. I still need to go back and get some good pics with our real camera. This was so fun :) Here is a link to a flickr pool of the event...it seriously was so awesome to be in the frenzy of installing them.
• I've been looking at houses online here. I really am feeling more and more comfortable in this place and community and can see us growing here as a family. But there are still lingering doubts and guilt I feel, so ask me tomorrow and I might be more hesitant. Sigh.
• From a few days ago- I posted it to FB: Some of our seeds just sprouted. Kaylee takes a look and exclaims, "It's a miracle!" Mya quickly corrects, "It's not a miracle, it's science. Miracles are things you can't explain, like in Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs, raining food, now THAT would be a miracle." :)  Mya is quite the truth and logic seeker right now. I love being able to talk out and research things with her so she can come to her own conclusions on various topics. And then get gems like these to see how her mind has them filed.
• I haven't done yoga in a while. For no reason other than the weather has been so good it has put a spring in my step and made me crave cardio.
• "All I know is that one of the most beautiful feelings in the world is arriving in a place where you feel like you belong. You didn’t create the community…you discovered it." From here. It has been bouncing around in my head, the whole part about community if you click over. I think I am finally discovering this here, instead of trying to create what existed in UT. It's a bittersweet feeling to let go and open yourself up.
• I picked the word OPEN for this year. Or it picked me...I really, really needed it and can honestly feel the difference. I hate that I never got around to blogging about it, but it is what it is. 

• Mya and her friend Ashani advanced to the Regional Science Fair. It was an almost all day event, so I am glad she had someone there to run around with in between events. She got another 1st place ribbon (at the regional level all primary kids place, 1st, 2nd, or 3rd) and her interest in science is even stronger :)
• Today I have been thinking a lot about defining moments in life, where you can look back, and even in the moment, you knew it was the split in the road that would take you where you desired to be. For me it was a really difficult, really honest and painful conversation. I am so grateful I had the courage to keep talking until there was nothing else to say. I felt a shift that night and the next morning it was like this new path was ahead of me. And I haven't looked back.
• Our friends had their baby girl in January and I have started to nanny for her as needed. Kaylee loves it. Loves her. I am so glad this is working out! 
• ‎"To connect with others deeply – to find our tribe – we have to let ourselves be vulnerable. We have to share who we are – both flaws and strengths. Because really, that’s what we’re all made of." via Wish Studio. I love this concept. In the past, and even my first instinct now, is to be guarded. I have always been this way, where I share exactly what I want and hold close the flaws until I feel safer. But it doesn't mean I always will be that way. Most of my best friends allow themselves to be vulnerable from really early on, and I admire that so much in them. I'm on a mission to share what I am really made of.